Once upon a time, i was just like you.
I would laugh exactly like you.
Let loose with giggles painting my face,
eyes brimming with tears of mirth as
pearls of laughter smudge my face and
take over my body.
I’d wear a beautiful smile like yours.
My face would beam with sheer delight.
I’d smile so hard like a crescent lit up my face.
Blush as if the sun were on the other side of
my sparkling teeth.
Once upon a time, honesty kissed my lips,
enchantment adorned my body and
enlightenment was my makeup.
I’d say “hello” and mean it, beam with so
much joy and bid my adieus.
Flirt with the sun on a hot day and wish
you a good afternoon.
Dance with the wind and say, “Have a
good day”, or “see you tomorrow” with
great anticipation and excitement.
I’d say, “I love you” with so much emotion
and mean it- without any hidden intentions
Once upon a time, i danced with so much zeal
just like you.
I’d swirl around artistically with so much
enthusiasm and energy with my intricate
foot step movements.
With my graceful twists and turns, my
kitenge skirt swished and swayed along
to the beat of the African drum.
It was amazing!
Once upon a time, i was young and free
just like you.
My dreams were limitless and the future
My perception of the world was beautiful
and i let my imaginations run wild.
I loved openly without any inhibitions.
My feelings and thoughts flowed freely as i
basked on the beach of endless opportunities.
I was unstoppable in my pursuit and determined
But now, i camouflage like a chameleon and
hide my true emotions behind the shroud
of fake happiness.
I wear the duck pouty face as a trend.
I change like the weather: cold as winter, hot
as the summer sun and moody as cloudy weather.
I wear the cloth of ambiguity and walk around with
a selfish sense of individuality.
I have been molded by judgmental society and
become mentally enslaved.
My emotions are forged; these thoughts and
feelings are not my own.
My smiles are as rare as true love in these times
and my laughter is more like a clown’s laugh.
I dance like my feet are hurting and smile like i got
halitosis and poorly done dental implants.
See, I have become guarded and conditioned
myself to the ways of the world.
My opinions are limited and i say things i do
“Hello” when I mean to say, “bye”.
“Good bye” when i actually mean to say,
I say, “nothing is wrong” when my whole world
is tumbling down.
My whole essence is characterized by lies and self
doubt; tainted with irregularities, fear and insecurities.
My words are woven with doubt and i speak
I am afraid of the future, slow to love, too scared
to put myself out there and take risks because
of the chagrins of failure and the lash judgments
computed by the human poll and drafted as statistics.
Look, my daughter! Pay close attention to these
Once upon a time, my eyes shone as bright as yours.
My dreams were endless, and the sun illuminated
Everything was crystal clear and love meant everything.
I was happy, very cheerful, intelligent, free, beautiful,
and unstoppable…at a different time, another era.
Once upon a time when i was just like you.